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Name:Addy
Gender:Male
Age:19 this yr

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Sunday, January 27, 2008

well i done nth but watch The Mist 2dae

so quite a nice show but i tink hardly anyone would like the show ba....
the show is quite disgusting as in the gore part.....i wouldn't say much but if interested watch it urself.....but somehow i feel tat this show the main part is human....is juz show tat what will human actually do when they are hopeless...and living beside death....what they do???
they will actually do anything tat is inhuman to keep themselves alive.....lik i always believe ....human are evil by nature...it only matter how evil u r???

one last thing when human have no hope and totally nth to believe in they choose death but don do so cause death doesn't solve anything is juz only a selfish act

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Saturday, January 26, 2008

左手边窗帘拉开了一些我的房间我的身边多了一些光线

一瞬间瞳孔缩小了一些

我的房间我的身边充满鲜艳蓝天

右手边音乐放大了一些我的房间我的身边多了一些气味

一瞬间心门拉开了一些

我的房间我的身边充满想像空间

best describe 2dae morning

everyday i care

everynight i cried

everyday i fail

everynight i tried

is juz when i wake up this morning

everything seen to turn their back on mi

best describe almost everyday of my life

what is my world finally coming to...felt as though i'm losing every interesting things all left is black and white....i wouldn't want to say who is causing this cause when i said one...tat person will pass the fault to the other what is left when nobody want to admit....i can only blame myself for knowing these bunch of ppl...can't they juz stay away from mi and mind their own business....i juz can't wait to start afresh is some other place maybe poly or JC i don't know yet ......

also deciding to end my job as a decoder soon....

drawing the last line of everthing...maybe there isn't a last line for me to draw...is juz tat i'm juz tinking too much abt these ppl...

all i can say tat these 4 yr isn't going any further ppl tat i cherished in tat 4yrs had already lost contact however some still left but guess i'm losing them soon as well


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Wednesday, January 23, 2008

haix ytd already have this thought in mind i don feel lik seeing any of my frenz YET.....but 2dae when ask mi go out play pool i lik tio jam....thn for while jiu " ok lah go, go loh" at 1st still wondering did i make the right decision.....after tat on the way i saw Wil thn somehow didn't feel so sian abt it lah....so still alright this thought didn't turn out to be anything bad

thn went there saw Andy and Ansel playing pool.....played for a few match already feel lik sleeping thn still went play bb make mi even sleepy thn wait for KH and YT de water....wait until lik wah....noword....if i nv ask them to help mi buy drinks i would have went home already but no choice wait....can't blame for a couple being so slow....haix...

thn tmr take result somehow everybody were scared but for mi not YET maybe right b4 the hr i take my result or the moment thn my leg will start to shake haix

so i have this thought y not when i take the result thn don see keep it somewhere safe thn chiong for one day thn see the result at least i wouldn't feel bad abt what i got or rather not so sad....

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Tuesday, January 22, 2008

ppl say time can heal wound no matter phy or mental at 1st i believe...now i don't
or is it juz tat i have to wait longer......if it does this wound is deep enough for mi to wait this long
or this isn't the cure to my wound i don't know....if it does, this wound will leave a scar......if my decision of trying help but put u in misery instead then i'm guilty and so sorry..felt so weak whenever i can't help the person i wan to help or is juz tat there is something i must give up in order to help.....if u started to hate mi because of what i did, i will felt worse than whatever that comes to mi b4 no matter is the "her" case or any bad feeling tat i felt b4....cause u r my dependence....if u r happy then i will be happier than u

haix....one day nv go emo i don feel gd....wonder since when i picked up this funny habit...nvm
obviously still working as decoder but sometime is quite tired till i forget or rather lazy to write a entry but better than no write at all.....actually in this job the best part is seeing the customer having fun...tat is the kind of satisfaction in this job but the worst is teaching moron games.....sometime u will wonder "this game so hard meh" or juz tat my explanation not good enough...whatever the case is the reasons takes 50% each.....

this few day so addicted to soda green but i can't find any of the album...haix....but can't be blame they are not tat famous yet...but juz makes mi wonder.....singer from got soda green got such a gd voice yet other band with lousy singing can get famous so fast... funny

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Thursday, January 17, 2008

a delete function for my head so as to forget everything tat i don lik to remain as memory...but i know is impossible leave it to the time...

but i realise sometime when lying down on my sofa staring into blank while my hearing song from MTV from my TV feel very relaxing...when i woke up i will have this thought lik "am i forgetting something?" is nice to have such feeling....thn sometime i hope i knew places tat is damn quiet yet got ppl walking by where ppl only mind their own buiness....maybe places lik play ground....1st thought came to my mind is Pub but too young forget abt it....somehow juz can't describe how i wan to place to be like....

at night can't help feeling so weak....haix

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Tuesday, January 15, 2008

haven been blogging for a long time cause i got no prob with my life and actually nothing to blog abt.....so nothing much to blog so write a few happening this the past few days...whr i am "lost"...

ytd i saw a girl which somehow i don know lah complicated feeling but juz a stranger...so i juz took a few glance of her and i notice she keeps looking at mi....soon i realised she looks lik someone i know yet i don know basically i don rmb...so i don care...but...nvm too embrassing to say....so until Dhoby Ghaut she alighted and i nv get to see her again...hiax felt i bit sad but nvm things juz go and walk away all the time so i will leave it to fate whether i will see her again or not.....

so being the Decoders for quite some time already but yet still feel unfarmilar to the work somehow ...but ok lah haven seen any ppl for the past 2days so sian whoever reading this plz try to come to The Decoders Cafe if u are free is such a nice place yet nobody wan to come haix....

realise something ppl tat look down on board game are juz worthless ppl tat can't move their mindset away from the classical game like Monopoly which i think is getting mono.......

thought of a few movie i wanna to watch .....i wan to Watch CJ7 another stephen chow movie on alien which a can laugh for mins after watching the trailer

and Sweeny Todd by Johnny Depp abt Todd being frame and went to jail...when he is out...he seek for revenge of the person tat frame him but can't so he open a barber shop and start killing anyone tat step into tat barber silently...and the body is sent to a lady tat made pie so can guess what happen to the body eh

and the mist....not too sure of the story but i find the trailer interesting

Kung Fu Dunk by Jay Chow nth special but feel lik watching the show after watching the trailer

Jumper...this movie is abt a group of ppl tat is capable of teleport and they were known as the jumper....sound nice the trailer is cool.....

and i guess there are some prob tat i think i should keep to myself....lik hu am i having prob with...haix always wanting to write such a thing but after some entry find out tat i attached more prob with myself instead have to restrain from writing....

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Sunday, January 06, 2008

白日出没的月球
我要的只是自在的露水
在夜想走的时候不要扯他后腿
我要的只是适度的吗啡
在病人该醒时候不要继续麻醉
我要的只是脆弱的蝴蝶
在山崩地裂时候不要逼我面对
我要的只是坚固的堡垒
在我该躲的时候不要继续侵略
肉眼看不见的宇宙白夜黑昼一样走
夜晚抬头发现月球比找到星星的多
而太阳当道时候光芒彻底遮过月球
月球尽管做得再多一样是没什麽用
我要的只是时机的正确
你的自大自以为只是我的轻蔑
我要的只是累赘的瓦解
你所有真知灼见只是我的可悲
我要的不是争个错与对
在我崩溃的时候麻烦请你闭嘴
我要的不是讨个是与非
在我无言的时候拜托离开我的视线
肉眼看到的宇宙迷惑於发光的星球
观赏的人没有错不能察觉的太薄弱
你照你的方向走只是不能让我感受
你认知的理所当然不适合套用在我
我要的不是敷衍的安慰
用错的对待反而让我心情脱轨
我要的不是肤浅的赞美
看不见你心里是否真的这张嘴脸
没错你说的全都没错
别顾哪个谁怎麽说
你就活在自己的井中
别看哪个风怎快活
谁怎麽说谁怎麽说
没错你说的全都没错
别顾哪个谁怎麽说
你就照自己愚蠢过活
这样走下去绝对不会错
我想要看见你说的草原
而不是一片遍布荆棘的荒野
我想要看见你种的蔷薇
而不是一束枯萎殆尽的花蕊
我想要看见你说的蓝天
而不是一道没有雨水的闪电
我想要看见你落的白雪
而不是一滴融化成血的眼泪
肉眼看不见的宇宙白夜黑昼一样走
夜晚抬头发现月球比找到星星的多
而太阳当道时候光芒彻底遮过月球
月球尽管做得再多一样是没什麽用
不要拿你的宇宙一味套在我的地球
我的地球怎麽运走不见得跟着宇宙
总躲在太阳背后怎能看见你的脸孔
总是选在白日出没谁晓得注意月球

无与伦比的美丽
天上风筝在天上飞
地上人儿在地上追
你若担心你不能飞
你有我的蝴蝶
天上风筝在天上飞
地上人儿在地上追
我若担心我不能飞
我有你的草原
耶~耶~
你形容我是这个世界上
无与伦比的美丽
耶~耶~
我知道你才是这世界上
无与伦比的美丽
天上风筝在天上飞
地上人儿在地上追
你若担心你不能飞
你有我的蝴蝶
嘿啊~嘿啊~

四季狂想
才说过节制 
却想着电视
口袋的双手 
又眷恋不诚实 
太过放肆
秋天推翻了潜意识
和夏天误导的地址
所有不和协的位置 
都放下了矜持
春风吹散落的宣纸 
还留着冻结的墨渍
虚构世界里的影子 
而在你眼里只是
NOTHING TO LOSE
撕裂的矜持最后都成就你的光鲜
尊严像一片是非 
说了又吠 
错了又愧
虽然眼前是没有降落点的抛物线  
我不管明年四季的更迭
仅扣着现在的圈点 
疯狂地肆虐
走过冬夜的沉潜 
春雨灌溉你的脸
就像秋风摘落叶 
夏艳一样会妆点

相信
我会永远相信 最後一片落叶
无论什麽世界
东风藏在眉心
我会永远相信 扎入心的水滴
在另一个世界
晴空布幔拉起
总是得到很多
多到麻木自我
竟然差一点就忘记
手掌里要有更多呼吸
曾经失去很多
多到放弃自我
黄昏最後一盏灯亮起
来得及撑开眼睛
地球偶尔太大去练习
沙滩上海浪留下痕迹
剩下心和自己有时太安静
自己都不敢看自己
我会永远相信 最後一片落叶
无论什麽世界
东风藏在眉心
我会永远相信 扎入心的水滴
在另一个世界
晴空布幔拉起
只带着皮箱流浪
装着自己的灵魂
背对着那个人怎麽想
张开翅膀飞翔
我会永远相信
开始掉下的泪
你和我的世界
痛褪去更清晰
我会永远相信
不完美的完美
不管什麽世界
距离不是距离
我会永远相信
最後一片落叶
无论什麽世界
东风藏在眉心
我会永远相信
扎入心的水滴
在另一个世界
晴空布幔拉起
我会永远相信
开始掉下的泪
你和我的世界
痛褪去更清晰
我会永远相信
不完美的完美
不管什麽世界
距离不是距离

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