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Profile Name:Addy Gender:Male Age:19 this yr About Links RaInE FaLaLa LyNeTtE HuIyI ShU FeN ZiHeNg YoNgQiAnG NiCk JeAn Le ArIeLlE MeLlY De Coder's Cafe favour MSN emo ____ Credits Coding By Kelly Archives August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 February 2007 April 2007 May 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 |
Monday, November 26, 2007 at 1st i thought i did let go of her soon i find out not totally but i finally realise wat is the last thing i couldn't but is almost impossible to let go of tat... frenz? maybe i don even wan to talk to her anymore...her senses are too dull and blunt for mi to "let go" of the last thing i wanna to i tinking of starting a "next life" blog for next yr no matter where i go letting go every single past i hope... next life obviouly sounds lik a new life to most ppl...to mi it sounds lik a brand new chance in a person life able to scrap off all the whosoever bad thing the person done and even forget all the happy memory he left behind...sounds gd for the bad thing but bad for the memory but tat is wat i really hope i can have but impossible to have a next life unless tis is fairy tales....so maybe my blog will complete my hope for mi sounds really stupid though but better thn nothing ytd went home by myself in the dark around 3 from the girl hse... not even a sound or car on the road only dim street light really look a zombie town... somehow walking through the dark i couldn't care much or even tink abt things felt as if i'm walking in a very realistic dream... walk till my hse bright void deck i thn realise i reach home it was quite a distance from her hse to my hse but i felt as though i didn't go to her hse or going anywhere a very mixed feeling i got ha.... happening 2dae? nth really... juz doing all the undone stuff i wan to cause spending to much time outside with frenz.... 1st i change my specs but collecting it a sat so wait...what else???.. went to the library to borrow for chinese novel....second cooking lesson with my mom...next? i fell asleep all of a sudden guess i too tired tis few day thought wil and the other will have a pool game but i guess they go somewhere else and cancelled tat off but also a gd thing cause i really nid a break nv had a proper sleeping night tis few day could have had mi killed not really in the mood of blogging 2dae but still manage to squeeze some things out to write haix kk not bad ha
Addy wrote down Thoughts @ 9:17 AM |
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Sunday, November 25, 2007 alrighty wat says 2dae.... same condition as ytd but thn tis time is at Little Miss scatterbrain hse ha..ha..ha a bit kind of forced laugh haix.... nowadays i got tis impression of most of the girls can't do hse work not trying to shoot anyone i noe juz observation from a few girls for example my brother GFs at 1st i tot is actually alright for anyone to be lik tis until my mom told mi lucky u can do housework can cook or else later u will met girl tat cant do any of this u will be dead but in fact i'm actually alright with it whether they can do it or not... no particular reason... i sometime really hope tat i will lost my memory so tat whatever heartache things i left behind won't haunt mi anymore... is not a nice thing when old painful things tat u tot u have let go came back an haunt u again.... y a memory loss?..... cause some thing is really impossible to let go only memory loss is the only way continue from wat i left ytd happening.... i went for i short Mahjong game ryt after the last entry ytd... but yq is too tired to carry on... so we end up sleeping in Andy room.... best part?.... one bed squeeze 4 guys wah lik tat i sure cnnt slp de ma.... in the end i decide slp on the floor but thn Andy is nice enough to give mi his space to let mi slp... at 1st i tot he was so nice so touch but he actually want to go to his bro bed and sleep so tat he can slp the bigger bed prickk....lucky enough i manage to get into slp.... but thn yq keeping turning toward my direction causing mi to have lesser space soon no choice back to the floor again...haix..... when i woke up in the morning i was so hungry and tired wan to go home best thing everyone is sleeping in Andy hse... tis mean i'm TRAPPED thn no choice open the door by myself and left the key on his table through the window a bit dangerous though but i really don wan to wake any of them up is not a nice thing to do... thn reach home.... out cold until 3.30 wake up thn i suddenly rmb i have tis dinner treat from my Aunt + El tution teacher...cause she is earning big buck from buying and selling of her hse so a good treat of course Shark Fin and Lobster cant be miss out a gd and full dinner juz tat a bit noisy and tired haix..... again home sweet home.....thn Wil and Yq again ask mi out tis time is staying overnight at the girl hse mention eariler in tis blog but i didn't intend to stay overnight... after all it is still the best to sleep in my own cozy bed sweet home sweet shithole..... tat s all for the tis 3 days blog epi really nid a nice break cause my brain is no longer working as per normal i guess... juz by looking at my blog also can tell... happening in life is longer thn thought in life
Addy wrote down Thoughts @ 8:15 AM |
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Saturday, November 24, 2007 Alright wats in for 2dae well writing blog at somebody room alone does give mi the creeps and uneasiness all tks to Little Miss Scatterbrain ha :) prick..... nvm i will write a rather short one for 2dae becoz of the feel is not there plus a bit disturbance...... juz 2dae happening will do i hope.... but nvm a sudden entry of the host makes mi feels better to write more hehe.... i don rink i want to write abt Manhunt anymore cause i feel lik a be overbroad with the game.... 2dae i suddenly tink of tis.... the kind of mindset ppl bring to do certain thing for example when playing a pool game learn to read their seriousness.... but for mi i guess i nv serious always hope to have a life to laugh and joke around even in hardship.....all i can do is to keep it to myself....ha ok happening 2dae.... though ytd slp at around 3 which i usually does ...manage to get up in the morning to have breakfast with my mom sec bro and his gf haix not really nice i tink cause whenever i went to have breakfast at Mac i tend to have stomachache don noe y maybe m stomach is to blame.....thn something i does almost everyday playing PSP while waiting for programn to come in Opps suddenly rmb programn for 2dae is already set basketball at 3+...crap when i went down lucky i'm not the last guy phew...thn really ar no stamina liao only a few much i'm deadbeat already but fun game really cause anyone got play sure kana injure once for mi i "flew" out of the basketball court sounds stupid cause i lose my balance......every injury there are bound to have someone laughing hahah....nice and tired game.... thn until i went back i started my 1st cooking lesson with my mom wat i learn 2dae are juz simple dishes not really worth mentioning after dinner i tot i call it a day however my frenz Wil suddenly called mi ask mi to go to a girl hse to stay over night at 1st i thought it was a prank cause he is tricky guy but expose easily but when the other frenz said it thn i believe....cause usually tis kind of ting abt girl don have my share one + i don really like to hang out with girls not saying i gay but really ...better not say later kana bash..... thn guess who tat girl is... the little miss scatterbrain mention eariler but quite use to her blurness le..... so no choice have to put out at Andy hse haix where i'm writng tis entry right now guess better not hop on his comp too long is not a nice thing to do anyway...... to be continue
Addy wrote down Thoughts @ 9:13 AM |
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Friday, November 23, 2007 Imgaine poking a pen into somebody throat the blood oozing out like fountain and u can hear the choking sound as the person try to shout for help(a thought after completing Manhunt 2)..... there is a certain thrill in there but the price is too much too high to pay... 1st u must have the guts to do so even if u have u r not the main character of the story u will be arrested one day 2nd u won't kill an innocent ppl for the sake of the thrill even if it is someone u hate the most it won't worth it lastly game is totally different from reality there is no restart button in ur life.... so tink b4 u do anything tat will make u regret when coming to huge decision....lol y would i wan to write something like tat in my blog but nvm whenever i thought abt wat to write in my blog is kinda of stress becoz if i write any offencsive stuff in will be in trouble if a write anything tat is boring it will be boring(lol)offencsive stuff really cnnt write abt wat abt boring stuff? i can write tat since almost nobody is reading my blog anyway...but thn i realise thn i write blog for wat at 1st i say to keep strong feeling but thn even if no strong feeling on tat i still wan to write thn i ask one of my frenz Y? s/he is to relives soul... if i blog is to relive soul i will be writing offencsive stuff already......so y should i be writing tis blog i ask myself....for the time being i tink is tat i like the feeling of writing stuff lik a writer and hoping reading will somehow will react to it(althought nobody really reply abt it)but i still hope so one day it will event 2dae..... is boring to anyone keeping reading my blog including myself... spending the whole morning dead sleeping when i make up is lik 2 in the noon tat i start playing Manhunt 2 until 6 the time i totally completed tis game thn sebas start to call mi in MSN for pool game so i went... but really sui ar..... always during last 2 balls i keep giving them free ball WTF thn i keep losing until closing to the end my luck start to turn a bit better but no better than my last opponent who keeps playing 9-balls with mi haix keep losing also sian but i won't lose interest i still lik to play pool haha.... thn we went home early juz in case we miss the last bus + we are abt to broke le haix basically no job no money no fun maybe i should start to tink abt looking for a part time job tat won't affect my night time happy hour ha........
Addy wrote down Thoughts @ 7:15 AM |
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Thursday, November 22, 2007 got nothing to blog abt my life 2dae only happening.... 2dae...well a break for mi they rest of the gang went for a movie but i really need to break when going out with them is either return home at midnight or the next morning wah cnnt take it will mati but thn i cnnt really stay at home lah keep playing PSP in the end went out with my bro thn went to my frenz hse to take PSP game manhunt 2 and GTA vice city stories but thn i don really lik GTA but i lik manhunt though they are created by Rockstar at 1st i tot the game Manhunt 2 is very violent and specially for sadist but when i play the game i'm only half right it is not violent as i expected but it is a game for sadist somehow i enjoy the game wahaha beware of mi.... lol but the storyline of the game is quite interesting is abt a person volunteered himself in a mental experiment for his family to pay off his debt but the Project is lik kind of a failure cause the main char(Danny) becoming a Psycho going around torture and kill ppl to recover his lost memory........ juz realised something funny my bro name in short is called LYT juz lik a girl in my class also call LYT..... y funny? i nv tot abt it b4 until i saw my bro army uniform name tag Y T Lau and i noe tat girl for quite sometime haha well actually wanted to write more but really lah reach limit liao nth to write for 2dae no inspiration haix
Addy wrote down Thoughts @ 7:58 AM |
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Wednesday, November 21, 2007 continue from last entry abt my MSN nick tis few day it says "with mi or without mi makes no difference i will be forgotten" sounds really emo eh? haha juz how i feel some time when going out with my frenz i guess maybe is tat i nv leave any gd impression for them ba .... also i don wan ppl to rmb mi when lost contact with any one of my frenz unless they are leaving close to mi tat will leave to how it turn out in the future.... 2dae happen to find another reason for missing frenz at 1st is they are busy with work nxt is tat when they have stead they hang out with their stead more often instead of coming out with the single frenz at 1st i thought it only applied to the minority but it does not seems lik the case....or maybe they hav some kind unspeakable reason i don really noe.... i've never stead b4 so is not really for me to say ha...... happening 2dae??? nothing really but at least better than ytd no programn 2dae sebas suddenly call me to go to Lavender to renew passport i don noe how long it is since i last travel aboard.... but thn when i look at my passport... Wah expired for abt 3yrs le lucky i renew in time or else i tink i have to make a new passport but whatever lah i tink is safer in Singapore ha... right aft tat the other 3frenz all went home to for a break and unpack their passport and watch movie later at 1st they told mi for a pool game but thn last min change to movie sian... aiya also not really sian lah juz tat not in the mood to watch but i really ok with it lik i said my way to waste and kill time..... say aftward i went home wanted to slp for a while but thn too obessed with my PSP liao nv slp got a headache no choice eat Panadol.... thn when i went tat lucky on time but they say i late thn in the end they say still got other ppl if not on time unable to catch the movie thn go play pool thn ..............( don wan to say)................ so in the end go play pool.... somehow my slicing really sux not even one went in... then keep waiting for one of my frenz He Gang at 1st i thought he confirm go out with her girl(Opps) lik i said b4 another reason tat they hang out with girl thn single frenzs but but but to my surprise he came... wah happy the minority tat i was talking abt b4 tat will not give up frenz for girl(gd and trustworthy frenz juz tat late sometime but also cnnt blame he live at the North side of the Island)....but really strange lah when he played with mi my slicing accurate until tat it nv happen b4... but thn on the surface i lik bullying him leh but thn if i play lax lik look down on him so no choice even if other will to say mi i don wan to insult his Pride play my best......chiong-ster style haha .....got things to write but.......unable
Addy wrote down Thoughts @ 8:32 AM |
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Tuesday, November 20, 2007 well.... 2dae is tuesday nth special actually.....lik my usual way i nv stop tinking abt life(juz realised few days ago haha) tink abt y i do tat y i say tat if tat happen wat will i do maybe tats how i get myself mentally prepare to certain case..... causing ppl to say i'm cold-blooded or heartless etc etc etc..... at 1st i not too sure i juz told them is not tat i'm............. is juz tat i let go of the past faster won't hang so long...........sometime for some particular reason tat i don noe ppl say tat i'm weird....freak..... strange....etc etc etc abt my act and words i don noe wats wrong but i noe tat i'm normal there will ppl out there lik mi.....luckily is only the minority saying tat.....haix haha come to think of it.. if i'm a cold-blooded freak they won't walk on tis Earth.... they will be burning in hell..lol also i realised when i read the past entry in my own blog cause most of the link in my blogspot are either delete or annonce 'dead' or even abandoned...... somehow feel a abit PS althought almost no ppl have ever read tis blog but will still feel ps abt y would i write something lik tat hahaha..... i tink tat how i rmb the past ba.... 2dae actually nth much juz tat i happen to wake up early and have breakfast with my parent and my bro(the one juz return from Aust.) thn went home play PSP until night thn i reaslised i miss my cooking lesson with my mom.... so sad nv tell mi... whole no ppl msg mi or call mi out for programn..... until the 10+ ppl start to call mi...at 1st i thought finally got programn liao in the end it is loan shark night shift collect money for nxt wk chalet also quite sad go around collect money bo chio i at home already algae and mushroom liao sad ar T.T but nvm lah tis juz always happen in the past so don really mind oh ya my MSN nick which i always use to remind mi wat to write in my blog.... haix keep it for the nxt entry ba..... better stop writing liao cause my living room is getting creepy keep hearing footstep
Addy wrote down Thoughts @ 8:17 AM |
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Monday, November 19, 2007 Alright finally back home...... somehow the trend nowadays is teens working for jobs after O lvl no matter part time or full time.... but not really my kind of things cause i worked b4... during sec 3... is rather tiring and fall aslp easily when u have nth to do if too many ting to do will die thn wat is the best choice for mi don work learn cooking from my mom is more fun.... However the only thing is tat no money to earn only depend on parents it juz somehow don feel too good to depend on them too much.......somehow is a good thing and also a bad thing tat my feeling toward her nv change b4... good in a sense tat is when i see her somehow i feel happy... bad thing in a sense tat when i see her with other guy don really feel gd..... but nvm i told myself his a gd guy but how do i noe..... understand tat guy more..... somehow i trust him but not totally... somehow i told myself if she is hurt because of him.... he will Pay.... haha wat a embrassing things to say but better than keeping it in the heart.... programn 2dae.... went to Orchard with frenz actually my way to waste time and kill time so accepted the invitation.... but sad enough without sebas hu went to M'sia nvm his gonna to be back soon anyway... 1st alight at Somerset thn walk to Orchard thn to Plaza Sing' till half way cnnt take it too hungry so went to eat myself while the rest go somewhere else and solo of..... however some frenz followed mi and wait for mi (tks guys so touched) at 1st i don wan to be so shameless and tk them thought they have other purpose...hahaha..... then the rest went arcade .... sad enough not really my stuff then i once again solo off and went to comic collection and bought a UMD for my PSP the price is quite reasonable for a original gd + a game tat i wanted to play....not bad at all..... juz as a went back juz nice tat day abt to go off haha.....but thn is something else more bored have to wait for the rest of the gang the girls haix though as a guy i'm not suppose to say tis kind of thing but really sian loh.... thn somemore the rest of the guys too obessed with mine and Ansel PSP not moving maybe i...... whatever.... juz by tis is only to waste time not to move around or not having dinner..... thn after the meet out i abt to mati liao really tired.... the best part is yet to come.... they when to jp for movie..... walao i cnnt liao lah their stamina really powderful ar i cnnt take it so no choice i went home 1st ryt after tis blog ZZZzzz.... somehow got something to write abt tis gang but is really offencesive so maybe i juz keep it to myself better hehe
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Sunday, November 18, 2007 continue wat i left from my last entry actually not really continue..... is wat i wan to write somemore ytd since exam was over thn maybe is time to plan my holiday or else is going to be boring..... gd ting i bought a PSP but thn it won't last for the nxt 2 and a half months.... 1st i tot keep going out with frenz is enough to kill some time but from the trend now everybody is either looking for a part time or a full time job so maybe no time at all.... haix although i already have a job but thn is from my bro.... However he intend to hire a full time assistant which means i'm out of job T.T..... no really lah my bro said i can work as well but it won't be gd to take his money since he don really need mi..... but thn my mom decided to teach mi everything she know abt cooking if i'm not working for my bro..... also something i wan to learn but a bit PS to say haha....holiday planing seems short but is enough to last mi all the way ok write happening for 2dae ...... 2dae nth really special cause is a break from previous sleepless nights with frenz and chalet... actually wanted to run in the morning and look for sebas but didn't manage to wake up not even the alarm clock wake mi up (PS ar ah bug) didn't even realise when did i switch off my alarm clock when it rang 6 in the morning.... so i slp my way to 12? around there lah.... thn i wake up .... face .... teeth ... breakfast thn play PSP... after so many sleepless night guess the rest of my frenz ZZZzzz..... so PSP watch anime until.... 7.30 thn i rmb wat day is 2dae.... 2dae is the day my sec bro return from Australia... Wah sian but nvm lah somehow gd to have him back thn pick him up from airport thn ... dinner thn bath walk to the table seat down open the comp tinking wat to write thn started writing tis entry.... time now is 1.01 don really feel lik slping but better slp early for 2dae ba or else tmr got programn i cnnt make it
Addy wrote down Thoughts @ 8:17 AM |
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Saturday, November 17, 2007 Finally exam end liao b4 i started writing tis entry i already tinking wat i wan to write is quite alot actually but ryt now when i am writing tis my mind go blank....... so juz writing wat i wan to write ryt now my 2dae MSN nick is " life lies nobody ever lik to play with the truth"...... the truth is always to cruel to face only lies is able to cover but not destroy..... but i choose to lie.... in the end the truth is out and i can't cover anymore juz b4 the exam.... always see her with another guy yet they don't admit they are..... this is not juz covering their lies but revealing me to the truth deeper.... is really hurting..... yet i don't tell the girl but i told another girl abt tis which really helping mi alot (Thanks if u noe hu i am refering to) Plus the exam stress if juz keep me imagine things hoping they don't come true while actually they are fact.... it really make me cry alot when out with the clique in the end i always play solo off...... i noe i lik her but i noe something else after the exam if i really love her maybe i should juz let her be wat she wan as long as she is happy even if she is with other guy and not me so be it..... even though i told tis to myself, it still hurt but another thought come in.... y feeling sad abt i find it meaningless to feel sad tis only make me feel lik a bloody idiot..... now after exam all wan with all my heart is to be happy find ways to have fun even if people hate me i only laugh at them... laugh at them wasting time and strength hating ppl lik mi...... no stress no work only fun with frenz tat is wat i consider tat i lived once ever since the last entry i started to think blogging is a freaking waste of time but i realise another purpose of blogging..... i wan to keep strong yet easily forgotten feeling here.... so ppl will ask y not keep a diary..... ppl lik mi are lazy and don lik to rmb the past.... after all past is only the root and pain and sadness unless it is something tat give mi a deep impression...... i rmb someone once ask me "wat is the most beautiful sound u have ever heard ?' i can't rmb hu the guy is but i only knew i was very young at tat time and don't wan to reply but now i noe the ans.... to mi is laughter...... hearing other laugh out of joke of whoever and whatever my heart someho feels happy and laugh as well ALRIGHT after all the emo and mindset changing stuff written..... maybe i should write wat i did after exam 1st thing i bought a PSP can feel lik screaming out loud so damn song man..... after tat a chalet which i did really wan to brought out abt it cause it will only cause trouble if i wrote my thought abt it....... Ermmmm for tis wk and last is a total POOL DAY keep going arena play pool really cause mi a bomb...... tis friday went to a frenz hse for overnight it was quite fun but Wah really tired nv slp only slp for less than 1/2 hr almost die-ed..... all i did was Poker Mahjong Movie PSP Rubric Cube chit chat with frenz accidentally told a screct and i told the girl don tell anyone thn 2dae was very fun as well eating steamboat at Mr Peh hse playing PSP shouting screaming and laughing loud cant even rmb when did i started doing tis..... something bad happen in the midst but i hope i heard wrongly.... the girl abt the screct.... over hearing saying things abt her sounds lik wat i told her tat day but hope she didn't .....even thought she mayBe should not talk abt it although most of them noe abt the prob aft all i tink is not really..... watever don wan to repeat tis few day somehow i pick a hobby of folding stars keep them in bottle is not really a guy stuff but everyone have their different sides after all.... still have a lot to write but continue tmr i wan to slp le
Addy wrote down Thoughts @ 9:47 AM |
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