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Monday, May 31, 2010

Hmm... 8 days has past since Murong left
Well i'm still hanging on pretty well getting use to days without her...
Hmm i kinda realise that i nv really ask her how she notice my existence.. i mean if we are in the same CCA of course we know each other..wat i meant was how did she notice that i am her kind of person... For mi i kinda realise that when mi and her were in relationship...so mine attention for her is only afterwards..after a few dates then i realise that she is cute...

I always tell her that i like her having long hair make yourself look more like a girl...and then she tries.. try to keep long hair wear skirt... until one day she told mi that she wans to cut her hair... so i say go ahead...then she got this really puzzled look wondering y...so i told her that i like u becoz of who u r not becoz of how u look like...if i'm with her juz for her look i might as well juz find any cute girl on the street...this is call playing for "fuck"... anyway in this 8 days i tink i need to change myself for her for everything she has done for mi...at least thats how i feel

i tried something 'fun' 2dae i tried drinking beer by poking a hole below and open the can... the feeling is pretty nice hahaha XD

There is this thought that i have about couple and i think is pretty common among some ppl... When a couple are together and seriously in love they will reach a point where don't will not appreciate each other...well there are a few ending for such things probably break up? or give each other sometime to test each other? or juz leave each other alone for months?... i don know maybe more...whatever it is ultimately...is still about how much ppl wan to cherish their relationship...
i often tell murong that hmm.... i'm not going to leave u unless u wan to leave mi....

No matter what happen whether sad, happy, angry and even feel weak don forget to Enjoy the little things in life... try drinking beer a different way :D

Addy wrote down Thoughts @ 10:54 PM | 0 Comments




MISSING JJ CATZ HAVE ANYONE SEEN HER????


Anyway i haven seen the cat for the like a few months already. Although she bit mi sometime but she is nice to play... worse come to worse did she....become.... curry for the security guard?!?!?!?!
Neh i don't think so, the guard her pretty well perhaps she went to look for her husband?? she is something little that i enjoy in life oh well now that she is gone what can i do?? can't possibly look for her cause i still got 'A' ?

Whatever it is, its been 7days already? since murong left.. now that i think of it.. it still feels lonely without her around. At first, keep thinking of the sad past and then got really down don't feel like studying, though i know that' hey is A lvl this lvl gotta study' it just doesn't come to mi. So to overcome i need to tell someone my emotion is a simplest way to get things off the chest.

So i decided to install MSN again! :D
since murong is not around, i have to talk to someone and so i found Zi heng and Arielle. One treats mi like a little brother probably and the other one perhaps one of the key player in his life since he says i'm one the person that he wants to meet in life? And tks to them i've overcome and the emotional barrier. Tks Arielle for her time and energy allllll the while not just this but during secondary school too can't help having this feeling that i'm wasting her time. She is like a lighthouse??? always pointing to mi the 'right' way

As for Zi heng tks anyway knowing u don't really know what happen to mi in the past but tks for the time for listening to thing that u don't really have to... he is........hmmmm eccentric? neh that is the word for mi... hmmmm mature in a different? perhaps? but i got this feeling that he would be a really good friend if i was able to spend more time with him???

come to think of it... i am who i am tks to every single person or animals that appear in my life be it the one i hate i love i cherish i look up to tks... on side notes this doesn't include my brothers cause i simply hate them too much to tks them...just can't wait for them to die or i die 1st...sadist ain't i... oh well that simply shows that how much i hate them.. such hatred is beyond words...i bet my mom will hate herself after she read this for not able to resolve the hate in mi for my brother... not that i will kill them right away or whatsoever...

Anyway is like Forrest Gump said u don't find any good friends from any corner
they are hard to find.. losing one makes mi cherish the next one losing one more makes mi wan to cherish the next one more and on and on and on.... i tink good friend is juz simple those that i feel comfortable talking to de

let mi try recall... My class de got Zi heng i tink him only lah secondary school one
think i lose then all..hmm that makes mi want to cherish the one in JC....oh wait got arielle...hmmm...current class....don have...Aww now then i realise how lonely i am
well doesn't matter...

Whatever it is i will always enjoy the little things in life :D

Addy wrote down Thoughts @ 5:56 AM | 0 Comments

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

I think i should always start my blog with, "Its been quite sometime since i last wrote my last entry". True enough anyway.

Recently has been really emotional, little things like watching Wall-E i already feel like crying. Crying makes me feel weak so i try not to. Reason for bring so emotional may be that i'm just so sick of JC life. Friends and family who sees me will always ask "Why you so sian?" and i will ask them this question "How to not feel sian when u are always doing things that u don't like for so many years". So i'm determined to find out things or jobs so that i won't feel so miserable in the future.

And there are people like my brother or even my mother say is hard to find something like that don't waste your time go and study. I was pretty pissed when i heard that. Is like how can u call pursuit dream a waste of time. If u don't have dream or never reach it, then don't prevent the rest from attaining them. It is very screw up to think this way. They always act like they understand how i feel and tell me to get good grades for your result so that u can find your dreams afterward.However as far as good grades can get u almost anywhere, ya almost. There are places where even good grades cannot get u to. So what do they know about grades. Grades should never be the gauge to determine your future cause good grades does not mean good work efficient.
What if all u can do is to memories, when u go to the workplace, mostly u r to do things only the boss ask u to instead of thinking what to do. When that happens, it just means that u r pretty much mindless or at least i will feel that way.

For the past 2 months, i tried taking video for sports events. Pretty fun but i got this feeling that it isn't what i want to do. Anyway, i learn a couple of things and hear about reality. The reality is that there are some teachers who have this 'ivory tower' and think that they are tall and mighty? It happens when my friends taking video of a badminton game and have this list on whether which court is playing what game. So some HOD took her list, when my friend ask about it, this HOD said,"U r here to film the game how can u not know anything". Well if not for the reputation and good manner i guess my friend would have fuck her upside down. Educator living off taxpayer money yet thinks they are some big fuck. HOD with higher pay simply makes them bigger fuck. Educator of Singapore is not up to standard, not talking about the teaching skill but about their behavior and mindsets toward teaching. Simply because of some iron rice bowl they have doesn't they can do whatever they want. As much as student and teachers can have fun in the midst of learning, mindset of the teachers should be more humble instead of some ivory tower that makes the student look ignorance so that they appear smarter. Is delusional for them to think this way. I think Goh Keng Swee creates a good education system for Singapore. I guess it is mainly the Ministry Of Error and the Educator who screw up the whole system.

Despite so many things around me really makes me feel very sian. The least i could do? Enjoy every little things in life

Addy wrote down Thoughts @ 7:31 AM | 0 Comments