for the past few day time seem really short but a lot of things happens.....ever since after the chalet few days ago i don noe what the friggin hell is wrong with me...i really don noe but i don wan to talk anything abt the past is too hurt can't look on the bright side...i start to think y does she even exist....her existance is not a fault but my stupidity....so what now keep getting the fucking feeling tat i don know what is it whenever i saw her or anyone mention her....feeling sad but not even one tear feeling angry don know what is the reason....wanted to hate someone...who? i don noe.....at most i can any hate myself....at 1st tot of meeting out to talk to her hoping to get rid of the feeling but......"go to hell" the kind of reply she gave thought she didn't say it out.....now? bet she forget everything already.....what left? last resort....the last thing tat i really don wan to use.........goodbye all my frenz..... hope i can forget her....after few months of isolation...............

but i will still continue blogging not saying tat i'm dead nor the blog