心痛比快乐真实地 孤独比拥抱真实 this 2 phrases juz simply means sad is more true than happniess and loniness is more true thn being with frenz or the person u love.....in simple term it juz says the bad thing are more impactful than the happy things...to mi true enough all the happy thing happened to mi i can forget them fast enough thn the sad things happened to mi....juz by my prob with her it can cling onto mi from April till now.... haix....but now still on the midst of un-clinging.....close to sucess..

funny to mi enough...in the midst of letting go of her i told myself alot of things....i told myself i have to cut off whatever relationship with her no matter frenz or person i juz happen to know or even her name a complete....which is impossible unless i had an car accident and i survive and memory loss....so do the possible.....with my best...ok here comes the funny part.....whenever i saw her and on msn....i got this erm....urge to wan to talk to her...any topic will do but the main point is i missed the time when i can talk to her in the name of juz frenz...maybe not frenz yet but juz unfarmilar frenz.....the point of time when i have no interest in her.......don even noe y hahaha....but for now from what she knows what is happening to mi is like already close to impossible.....cause if i will to do so she will be naive and thought that "i still lik her wan to have her back" haha no way.....tats the only thing i don lik abt her....being too naive...lik last time i wanna to ask her out to talk and settle everything........and tats the kind of reply i got....which makes mi so damn fed up......ok now probs comes in and sit down and says "is ok tat u want things to return back to the way it was with her help.....but she don't wan to" hahaha i'm a moron (To reader : got a bit short circuit)

Life: started at 2.55
Mood:all right
Day:Emo ceremony thn rotting hrs thn still rotting away

have a really funny dream this morning....or rather this morning...i dreamt that i am using msn talking with frenz i can't really tell is who but i rmb the name it reads "Klo Frng, Aesel, Ynn Tgng, Ynng Qanig... still got somemore i can't rmb who is it...so in the dream i don't know what are they talking to mi abt...but i know i'm replying everything keep hearing the msn sound....when i woke up i heard the msn sound again so i thought " is dream sleep longer ba" but thn i realise im lying on the bed...this is no dream already...thn i look at my comp ppl are talking to mi on msn for how long i don noe...(i leave my comp switch on overnight).....

so when i woke up they are talking abt another chalet...Oh give mi a break...from the 1st chalet when i went home i sleep through a day from the 2nd chalet i suddenly become very emo from what reason i don even know...the 3rd chalet ??? scare i will die better not go oh ya an add-on to my dream which is also the cause i woke up as it become a nightmare....the person name Ynn Tgng died.....where is the horror the person still talking on msn when he or she is dead...sounds really stupid...

so after that i rot by watching anime till 8 when i am suppose to go Andy hse with juz Ansel and mi..when i reach there Andy is not at home still at Bugis so Alright i got it down not berserk yet
so i went home 1st while telling Ansel tat Andy will be home by abt 9 and i told Andy to call mi when he At home....so Ansel decide to come my hse 1st playing PSP thn we wait and wait and wait until 10 i decided to call him .....he is already at home ....so i was CCB nv call mi thn he say" after u call mi KF says is cancelled" alright thn i wasn't angry with anyone but i am so damn fed up thn i couldn't do anything but to curse to whoever lah..... i nv say name

ok one long stupid day juz lik tat...JUZ LIK TAT GONE