this morning when i woke up....i felt as though i'm sick of this life....it was 10 something.....so i continue to lie on the bed hoping tat my days will juz past...until 3+ mood start to lik turn a bit better decide to wake up thn go online thn Andy talk to mi on MSN but really in the mood to talk so i juz entertain him.....from tat 3+ to 4+ i felt so lost juz lying on the sofa looking at the ceiling....empty mind....until abt 5 thn ihave to get ready for work.....thn ya go Newton

5th day at the De Coder's Cafe......so at the Cafe is the only time i felt so alive when there are ppl...so played game with them laugh with them...2dae i laugh so much tat i don rmb when is the last time i truely laugh out of fun.......though we are strangers but we are all human....so blend in quite well have a fun time...until 12+ i have to get to usual work lik clearing the cup and plate cleaning the sofa.......tats when i start to return to the same mood...

thn...sometimes night....i felt so funny...tat i wanted to give up everything....frenz family but not my bed wanna to lie down there when i wake up i don wan to see anything i only wan to see the end....i don noe is it tat i'm too tired or side effect tat i lost something so important to mi b4 so suddenly or i juz stress out...felt as though i can't hang on anymore...thn nxt morning i don felt so much.....maybe i wan to try to lie on the bed for the whole day not doing anything except listening to songs tat i wan to listen......haix i can't say what is it anymore