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Profile Name:Addy Gender:Male Age:19 this yr About Links RaInE FaLaLa LyNeTtE HuIyI ShU FeN ZiHeNg YoNgQiAnG NiCk JeAn Le ArIeLlE MeLlY De Coder's Cafe favour MSN emo ____ Credits Coding By Kelly Archives August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 February 2007 April 2007 May 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 |
Tuesday, June 15, 2010 Lets do a inverse countdown... from 2dae 4 more days b4 murong return..hahahaXD I really miss her so much.. sometimes despite that she will be back without her around is still very bored.. as in when i am not motivated at least i call her talk to her so that my mood will be better esp when i need to study... study is the worst thing that i ever did so far in life esp studying subject that i have no interest in... ytd watch The Karate Kid..with Zhi heng, Meiqin, Arlha. A very good show to watch actually. Anyway we talk about their life after A lvl.. where are they going to do...and i had this thing that cross my mind.. Singapore always wanted to create elite but Singapore spend most of their funds on education to kill talents. I mean like other then the talents that Singapore wants to create what about those Art talents. In singapore those very Art base talents, are very hard to develop cause of the system.10 years of compulsory education other than that is up to u... that is pretty much crap cause after secondary school only 3 ways out ITE, Poly or JC. lets not talk about JC the other 2 i tink they have very limited course... i mean like if u ever wan to lead a better life in the future of course ppl will usually choose to go Uni to get a degree. Either of the 3 ways if u work hard enough u will get into Uni... as in really work very very work...even for JC. When u go Uni, the course got even more limited. cause the course are determine by Singapore society, u don really see courses that is related to music, painting or dancing. even if u do, is probably related to Singapore economic. Simply because Singapore is a small country the only resource that we have is dadadadada........I juz think that Singapore education system is a perfect talents killing system, unless u very interested in business related topic.. For mi? i choose the JC in the 1st place so i'm pretty much stuck to it so i have to work this through no matter wat...when i saw my friend collected the result some of them are really happy some of them break down some of them just feel nothing about it. At that time, i really wish i can do something about it. So i started thinking to do something about it, but the current mi cannot do anything about cause i'm like them stuck in the system. The next best thing i can do is to climb to the top of the system and start doing changing from there. I have a good who always says that "If u don't like something, do something about it. Don't complaint don kpkb. " I think that is how i feel about it... but all talk no action... haix sucks to be mi...hahaha For now. I will pick up my SHM notes beside mi and start reading... i should be happy cause i finally did something for 2dae.
Addy wrote down Thoughts @ 9:36 AM |
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Thursday, June 10, 2010  HAha Husky have so many looks.. anyway 18 days have passed since Murong left and 3days since my grandma pass away. in just 8days so many things have happened, starts with 8 june when my grandma fell for the 3rd time within 6 months. from the second fall i already knew her days are numbered. On the 3rd time i was still thinking maybe not so fast perhaps a few more day. then i tink about it..hmm juz go and visit her while i can... in the end she passed away on the 9th of june juz before the day i visit her. Knowing that doesn't really sadden mi nor am i happy. I juz feel kinda of heavy. Not talking about my weight but my heart. No tears no smile.. anyone who witness death even thought is not someone close people might juz feel this way unless i'm talking about my big bro than probably i won't feel anything only bad memories when i think about him... juz that for mi and my grandma wasn't that close... so i juz felt this way. Good thing is that she didn't die in pain or anything she juz died in coma and she have already made quite a result going as far as 88yrs old. thats on the brighter side... In this week, i also have a history test that i pretty much...ermm.. think i shan't talk about it...other than all this... this is a very difficult week for mi to stay happy esp when murong isn't around...Only thing i should really feel happy about this week is probably history common test is over..seriously nothing to enjoy about...this week is really DOWN week...oh well, I only hope next week will be better
Addy wrote down Thoughts @ 9:58 PM |
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Thursday, June 03, 2010  juz a pic of husky XD Yeah is the 10th day already... lucky Husky is with mi if not i would probably die? speaking of dying. 2dae i was thinking if i die... how would murong feel. She always tell mi "i would be sad"... then i will tell her if i really die.. i hope u will be the one to design my grave hahahaXD...Esp if i die when murong has no idea at all... imaging if she come back happily juz because she missed mi and i dies ???thats pretty dramatic... anyway u won't know what will happen the next second... I realise i am very sensitive towards other ppl feeling or thought about mi...it is not really a good thing...cause it sometimes restrict ur behavior u were always afraid of things or words that u say might hurt somebody... i mean sometimes there really are taboo for ur friends... 1 or 2 of this is ok... when is too much it gets heavier cause u have to shape yourself to fit into mold... sometime is really hard to breath this way... and thats y sometimes u really need a friend to talk to be yourself Sometime i really hope my friend or ppl around would just tell mi that there is something that they don't like about mi.. though there are things when is ask to do it loses all its meaning... but sometime i think there is a need ba. some ppl are juz too polite and ppl don get their msg they trying to hint... i not very smart on this kind of things... and sometimes because of this i start imagine things like "does that person hate mi ot wat" Or is that person annoyed by mi... the best part is that when i ask the person r u ok with what i'm doing some ppl would juz tell mi "oh is ok" but in fact right under his mind... that person is pretty pissed...there are times i really hope that i can read a person mind so that i won't have to imagine things or crack my brain juz to think or feel how other ppl feel...after all i still prefer friend so can practically take anything... well who wouldn't wan a friend like this hahaha XD whatever it is we still have to be happy to be able to breath other than to breath when u r alone...i think i'm seriously running out of things to talk about.. still, we have to Enjoy the little things in life....:D
Addy wrote down Thoughts @ 7:20 AM |
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Wednesday, June 02, 2010 it's been 9 days already... everything still looks good. My problem never seems to cease and some persisting one look kinda of childish and dumb? i don't know about other ppl cause if anyone have prob they would probably told someone or solve themselves is not really my business to ask around not like i can help them unless is my gf My problem seems childish because there are a lot of things i know that i have to do rationally but emotionally i couldn't accept it. What i think and how i feel is too different for me to make sense out of it... lets just call it half mature. I think feeling is very impt because sometime feeling are the motivation to push u beyond ur limit because it is something that u wan to do it not u should do it... like study i know i should study but study something that i have no interest is not wat i want as far as they are probably link to my future. Anyway that is just how Singapore system work... study so hard for something that u might not even do in the future Some of my problem seems dumb because they are problems that seems to be gone but nv and return and haunt from time to time... though tell mi to face it, confront it, and be brave about it.Yet, i always thought all this time i'm dealing with it but seems like i'm still running away from it."Face Your Own Problems" i also know but how??? there are ppl who hold on to their problems for 6...7 yrs. I tot mine is long enough. When the day b4 i start telling my friend the story of my problem i don't feel anything wrong about it as it i don't feel that it is a problem... i think it only hurts when the feeling return.... like i say feeling is very impt as much as thinking And when murong is always very emotional.. she will always say " well, life is always ups ans downs is like PMS even though u r not girl" but i think i still like the rule from zombieland..."Enjoy the little things in life"
Addy wrote down Thoughts @ 6:48 AM |
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